In the span of one week, my life has gone through a seismic change. I had significant knee surgery, AND I realized miraculous things about my two dogs.
It’s one thing when you can explain to your family and friends that you have an upcoming surgery; they comprehend the outcome, but pets don’t know that something is bound to change until it does.
That’s why I’m compelled to write an open letter to my dogs.
I wish my dogs could read my letter that I’ve written or could receive daily text messages from me because this is what I would say to them, even though words can’t begin to touch my feelings.
AN OPEN LETTER TO MY DOGS
I’m sorry for when I first came home after surgery; I know you were scared. Scared of the way I hobbled in on clangy, metal crutches that frightened you with every step I tried to take. I saw your noses twitch the air from the medicinal smell I brought into our domain. I’m sure you found it both irritating and discomforting. I hope you weren’t too afraid.
How could I change so drastically in a short amount of time? Yesterday we were going on walks and today – well today I can’t walk. But, most of all I’m so sorry that family members thought it was in our best interest to be separated from each other my first day and night home.
I need you to know that broke my heart as much as it broke yours. I heard you cry and moan all night, me in my room and you relegated to outside the door of my room. I know the other’s thought it was in my best interest, but they don’t understand our bond.
I NEED YOU MORE THAN YOU NEED ME.
It took a lot of coaxing but finally the next day you were allowed to see me and having you close took away my pain.
Sure, I’ve read all the reports about the health benefits of having a dog. I’m aware of how dogs improve your mood and decrease depression. Heck, I’ve read that dog owners enjoy several cardiovascular perks, including lower blood pressure, lower heart rate, and stress levels.
THE LIST OF BENEFITS TO OWNING A DOG IS JUST ABOUT ENDLESS.
I know this in my soul.
But, those were all words read and saved somewhere in the stratosphere before today.
Your presence eased my pain. Your cuddles brought me joy. Your gentleness made me strong. Your hot licks on my cold hands brought me warmth. Your looks of reassurance made me confident. Your playful coyness brought me optimism and I’m in awe of your daily comfort.
I’m amazed that each time I gingerly try to walk Keira guides the direction, and Rosa moves behind me every step of the way.
I’m flattered how you watch me. Every movement, whether I’m adjusting myself on the couch or getting set to rise – both of you are alert to my every move and ready to walk in our formation.
How did I ever get so blessed? Is this some innate ability dog’s have with their loved ones?
How can I ever repay you?
I think about this quote often –
My goal in life is to be as good of a person as my dog already thinks I am.
I love you both more than I can express. You are my lifeblood. I didn’t understand the depth of what it means until now.
~Kisses & Love Forever
Have you experienced your pet in a new light? It’s impactful.
I wish Keira and Rosa could read my open letter to them, but I will express my love to them daily in beloved dog ways – hugs, kisses & walks (when I’m off crutches).